I am a product of capitalism, and I am angry.

I feel hopeless and absolutely useless, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

So why this feeling on a perfectly fine Thursday morning? Well, I had a tiny conversation with someone who said “It’s not a matter of generations anymore, it is our generation”, and now I am angry.

During the past year or two the world has, finally but very much too late, started talking about our world and how we are killing it rapidly. We are finally seeing how our climate is changing and what we can do to help our world out just a little. But, fuck, it is so late.

I am a product of capitalism and the comfort that I have grown up in, I was never truly told how bad it was to leave lights on or how straws are bad bad bad. My family have always recycled, because is Sweden that is just what you do, it’s not even a good thing, YOU JUST DO IT. But there so much more things that could have been introduced to my life earlier which would have made me more aware of all the shit that is going on, and all the shit we are leaving to our children to deal with. I’m not saying that my parents didn’t do a good job, they did, but they are also a product of capitalism and obviously wanted to give us all we wanted.

The saddest part is that I still don’t do enough. I love consuming. I love to travel and I would hate for the flight prices to rise. But I am freakishly aware of how bad it is and how bad I am doing as a human being. I’d like to say that I try. I still recycle, (even though the way people recycle here in England is ridiculous, it barely exist),  I don’t eat meat more than once a week and mix my meals up with vegan recipes, I do laundry once a week maximum, and I very rarely go anywhere by car. If train prices were lower I’d go by train everywhere.
But I am not even close to doing enough. And that makes me angry too. It makes me angry that no one has done anything or forced people into doing something earlier, because there were signs. But no, because comfort came before everything 50 years ago, when we started to figure out how to NOT do anything by ourselves.

People say that Greta Thunberg is brainwashed, but, actually, everyone else are brainwashed. We are brainwashed into comfort and the constant thoughts “but what can I do? I am only one little human? It is only one bloody straw”, and that we need it all. We need all the clothes, we need meat, and we need to fly.

Today I am angrier than most days, because today I was told “it is too late”, and I feel useless. Can everyone else join me in my anger?

Greta Thunberg; climate change warrior: “Some people can let things go, I can’t” by The Guardian

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That week in Stockholm

I couldn’t have timed my week in Sweden better.
I arrived in the afternoon in the 12th of April, and it was freezing. I knew it would be, but I refused to bring my winter coat. So I waited, freezing, for Emma and Josefine to pick me up before our comedy night, which ended up being pretty great. The rest of the weekend was spent cuddling my girls, shopping, and chatting about everything. It was so nice to have a weekend with them, and I miss them a lot. And the temperature rose. It was between 15 and 20 degrees all week long.

On the Tuesday I met up with Gustav for lunch. We didn’t have any specific plans so I took him to Glashuset, the restaurant I wrote about in Scan Magazine last month, and had a good catch up, and a delicious lunch.

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After lunch I went to see my plus cousin (my uncles wife’s son), his girlfriend, and their two children for more cuddles and play. The evening was spent drinking and watching football with said plus cousin and my two biological cousins! Such a lovely night with a lot of laughter.

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On Wednesday I met up with Sandra who I studied at Roehampton University with and who also work for fantastic Selcouth Station. She took me to Djurgården for lunch and loads of talking. She also snapped a few pictures of me against pretty walls.

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The rest of the week was spent enjoying the SUNSHINE, playing with cuties that I’ll be showing later, and wandering the streets of Stockholm. I also managed to squeeze in a visit to my uncle and his wife, to eat their food, and discover their Hogwarts houses.

I really didn’t want to leave this Friday. Like I’ve said before I haven’t experienced living in Stockholm and kind of wish I could for a while, but it is also easy to enjoy it when you’re on holiday and have no obligations. Anyway, I had the most amazing week and hope to come back soon.

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Pillowtalk, Difficult by P. and Emmy Design for Scan Magazine

The April issue for Scan Magazine is filled with articles about fashion, Scandinavian design and Mads Mikkelsen, and, incredibly enough, three of them are written by me.

Sustainability is an ongoing theme in Scan Magazine and most brands focus on this in their business plan. I think it’s a great thing, and we all should be more conscious about our consumption, but I am quick to admit to my own shortcoming in this area. I am one of many who has to think about what I buy and what affect it has on our planet. Of course, everyone doesn’t have the same possibility to buy organic or from small businesses. However, everyone can do something. For example, we can all remember to turn of the lights when you leave a room, or to not do more laundry than necessary.

That’s just my thoughts after reading this month’s Scan Magazine.

Read my articles, “Difficult trainers – designed in Swede, handmade in Venice”, “Fashion and bed linen for everyday luxury”, and “A ’30s to ’50s-inspired clothing brand for every woman” at pages 21, 26, and 90. Also check out “Look good, feel good, do good”, at page 91 and “Seek out the cosy island pace” on page 106.

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A community of writers for Selcouth Station.

Around five months ago I wrote a few blog post for Selcouth Station, a small independent publishing websites that aim to promote new writers. It is run by the lovely Haley Jenkins who loves loves loves poetry and to find new talents. Haley is also an amazing editor and inspiring to work with.

I have not yet posted them here, and I would love for you to read them.

CLICK HERE FOR BLOG POST – A community of writers.

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Places that inspire me for Selcouth Magazine.

Around five months ago I wrote a few blog post for Selcouth Station, a small independent publishing websites that aim to promote new writers. It is run by the lovely Haley Jenkins who loves loves loves poetry and to find new talents. Haley is also an amazing editor and inspiring to work with.

I have not yet posted them here, and I would love for you to read them.

CLICK HERE FOR BLOG POST – Places that inspire me. 

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Books and authors that inspire me for Selcouth Station.

Around five months ago I wrote a few blog post for Selcouth Station, a small independent publishing websites that aim to promote new writers. It is run by the lovely Haley Jenkins who loves loves loves poetry and to find new talents. Haley is also an amazing editor and inspiring to work with.

I have not yet posted them here, and I would love for you to read them.

CLICK HERE FOR BLOG POST – Books and authors that inspire me.

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Would you rather…

Meet your great grandparents or your great grandchildren?
– I’d rather meet my great grandchildren. I am fortunate enough to have met one of my great grandparents, Gammo, and she made the best pancakes. But I think it would be amazing to see how my great grandchildren look at the world, if there is one, and how they approach life.

Have more time or have more money?
– Have more time. Definitely. However, we’ve got time, but we have so many opportunities to do EVERYTHING all the time that our time feels limited. Matt Haig, oh wonderful Matt Haig, wrote about this in his latest book “Notes on a nervous planet”, and said, “To enjoy life, we might have to stop thinking about what we will never be able to read and watch and say and do, and start to think of how to enjoy the world within our boundaries. To live on a human scale. To focus on the few things we can do, rather than the millions of things we can’t”.

Have life rewind button or have life pause button?
– I’d pick to have a life pause button. I’d rather live in the moment for a bit longer than being able to go back to it.

Know all the worlds languages in the world or speak with animals?
– As much as I’d like to be able to speak to animals I would still pick to know all the languages. Firstly because I couldn’t handle the guilt when talking to animals, but also because I would like to understand everyone around the world and be able to hear their perspectives.

No one shows up to your wedding or no one shows up to your funeral?
– I’d rather have no one showing up to my funeral. I’ll be dead and will probably not notice. I didn’t arrange it. My wedding on the hand better be packed with people and love!

Stuck in a lift or stuck in a ski lift?
– Hardest one yet. Being stuck in a ski lift is a way cooler story, but imagine how cold you’d be?! A lift would probably get fixed faster as well, but it’s scary in another way. Okay, I’ll say I’d rather get stuck in a lift…

Go to dinner along or go to a concert alone?
– I’d do either, and I have done both. But I think I’d rather go to a concert alone, because you are not actually alone. Everyone around you love the same artist and you can find someone to enjoy it with.

Have world peace or stop world hunger?
– Stop world hunger.

Go sky diving or go bungee jumping?
– Sky diving, it is definitely on my bucket list.

Be an adult your whole life or be a child your whole life?
– Be a child! I miss childhood. I loved being 12 years old. I just played sports and read books and cycled everywhere. Good times.

Go on holiday with your friends or go on holiday with your partner?
– Can we all go together? Honestly, this depends. Going on holiday with friends are so great and the mood is very different from when I go on holiday with my partner. But when I travel with my partner is kind of easier when it comes to deciding things. Holidays with friends include a lot of different opinions, haha.

Side of salad or side of soup?
– Who has soup as a side? I’d have soup as a starter and salad as a side.

Get a brand new house or a brand new car?
– Easy. Give me the house! Could not care less about cars or weather they are new or not.

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Throwback from a spring day three years ago. I miss those converse. And my mothers jean jacket.